Not Good Enough For Truth in Cliche

Hurtful words,
From my enemies of the last five years,
What's it like to die alone?

And how does it feel when tears freeze,
When you cry?
The blood in your veins is twenty below.

Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on my trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see her back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,
Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on my trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see her back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,

Something I cannot forget.

So for now, take this down a notch,
Crash my car through your window,
Make sure you're still alive,
Just in time to kill you,

Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on my trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see her back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,
Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on my trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see her back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,

Something I cannot forget

( I can't take this take anymore )
( I can't take this take anymore )
I cannot feel what you've done to me what you've done to me
( I can't take this take anymore )
( I can't take this take anymore )
What you've done to me

So for now, take this down a notch,
Crash my car through your window, ( window.)

Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on my trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see her back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,
Sitting in this room playing Russian roulette,
Finger on my trigger to my dear Juliet,
Out from the window see her back drop silhouette,
This blood on my hands is something I cannot forget,

Something I cannot forget.


*This is the song that is playing on repeat in y mp3 player. I am very much in awe with song because I picture out a treacherous lover who is not sure if he really loved her or not.

Characters...

The characters that I have created lived in different universes. I imagined myself meeting them in real life, though. My newest character is Aya. She is a drug dependent, delinquent-looking, activist who is taking up bachelor of science in veterinary medicine. Although she is not the protagonist of the story, I think she can be the main character's partner-in-crime/shoulder-to-lean-on and the skeptical best friend. I think her personality is closest to that of Enrica and Abigail from my other stories (although Aya is the weirdest among them).

Another one is Lily, a prostitute. There is something in her that represents any other woman and I planned on ending her life but I don't know what prevents me from doing it. Like I said, I imagined meeting this characters in real life. I have imagined that I met Aya in our university's Humanities building and then riding with her in a jeepney going to the upper campus.

I met Lily when my roommate and I were talking about our soon-to-be t-shirt business and I saw her knocked at our door (that never happened, of course).

I'm always getting excited whenever I think about them and what will happen to them in their worlds. I hope I can get a lot of inspiration right now.

Hard times

Yep, hard times. I am having lots of it. It seems like I have a lot of things to do and can't figure out what to do first. The first thing on my mind is to create a short story that does not really have to do anything with my preference of genre. I'd like to create a high school romance fiction -- I have the inspiration and the concept but I can't think of the details that come in between. Second, I'd like to write a song. The lyrics are in my mind right now but the problem is, I can't seem to force myself to get a pen and paper and write it down. There are still lots but my mind is working differently now. I think I'm becoming restless, add the fact that I'm getting too lazy. Right now, all I'm doing is listening to the songs in my mp3 player. I'm wishing to form a band of close friends -- but since we're all girls, the supposed-to-be-drummer is skeptical. She's living in stereotypes which I do not really like.

I am also hungry and there is no available food here at the house. I want to watch anime but the electrical bill reading is tomorrow so I should not use appliances that uses a lot of electricity.

DARN!!!

Banda

Tulad ng iba, gusto ko ding magkabanda. Pero sympre, musikang bato ang gusto tugtugan. Dahil nga nagkaroon na ako ng mga tunay at liberated na mga kaibigan ngayong kolehiyo, gusto ko sanang maging girl band kami pero hindi yung typical na girl band na alternative ang tugtugan. Dahil nga ang mga musical influences ko ay ang Beastie Boys, Sandwich, Evanescence, Greyhoundz, Slipknot, Eyes Set To Kill, Good Charlotte, Green Day, etc, gusto ko din sanang maging experimental rap-metal band or punk rock band kami.

Mahabang proseso pa ang kailangan. Kailangan ko ding mag-aral muna ng maigi-- both acads and playing my most favorite instrument, the guitar. Meron na kaming drummer, bokalistang marunong maggrowl, bahista, at isa pang gitarista na lang. Masyadong ambisyoso tong gusto ko pero isa ito sa mga hinihiling ko talaga.